Has darkness taken over me ?

What if I can’t ?
What if I haven’t the strength ?
Little by little, I fall
I’m so tired of fighting...
Fighting for what ? Nothing !
I wish this could all just disappear
My pain slowly tears me down...
I've lost faith
So many people are counting on me
But this is just too hard...
I'm fading away
I'm sorry
My wounds won't heal
They seem too deep
I've lost myself
This time, I let it go
I won't fight back

Just drifting apart...

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Silent fears...

I'm fading farther into my misery
Forgetting who I used to be
Things that once came so easily
Seem too difficult for me
I'm losing it all
The wounds won't heal
This is all just too real
The scars won't fade
I can't seem to forget
Day after day
I'm praying for my pain to go away
I just want my pain to fade...

Blood for scars
Tears for eyes
Words for lies
Born to die
Tears for sorrow
No tomorrow
The end is near...

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This pain is just too real...

Les bleus de l'âme
Les maux des yeux
Les mots des larmes
Les yeux des larmes
Les larmes des mots
Les mots des yeux
Les maux de l'âme...

I look away
All I can feel
Is the pain
I try not to cry
It hurts so much...
My blood flows
Stains the floor...

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Cold was my soul...

Des larmes qui parlent
Des mots qui pleurent
Comme des coups de rasoir
Sur les parois du coeur
Une accumulation au rythme saccadé
C'est quand je crois m'en sortir
Que je vise le fossé
J'ai trop à dire
Au point de me taire
Je perds mon sourire
Sous mes faux airs
Je m'écrase
Je piétine
A coups de matraque
On me rabaisse
Je suis blessée...

Envie de me tuer, de vomir
Epuisée de tout supporter
Je ne suis rien
Et je retombe...
C'était trop beau, trop irréel
Plus de larmes
Envie de me brûler
Mal...

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Untold was the pain...

See these scars...
They are reminders of my failures
They are reminders of anger and hate
They are reminders of my weakness
They are reminders of agony
They are reminders of my shame
They are reminders of my sorrow
They are reminders of my past

These scars don't lie
They don't fade
They stay always
Telling a story
Of what caused it
The how and the why
These scars tell the truth

These scars run deep in me
Lies, sorrow, still crying from the fear
This will never pass through me
Memories of all that's passed by
My fist breaks through the mirror
Screams of agony, pain and distress
Falling through life...

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Mon avenir s'efface...

Nuit noire, sombre enfer
Depuis ce jour là
Ma vie n'est qu'un calvaire
J'ai perdu confiance en moi
Je tombe, rien ne m'arrête
Les parois de cette fosse défilent
Là-haut, le soleil quitte la crète
Et laisse place à une nuit fragile
Archange du chaos
Souverains du désespoir...

Rester ou partir
Quel est mon désir ?
Vivre dans ce monde ou le quitter ?
Attendre mon heure ou tuer mon coeur ?
Essayer de résister ou me laisser aller ?
Rester ou partir ?
Quel est mon désir ?

Le sommeil ne vient pas
Le bonheur n'est plus là
Je voudrais oublier
Mais c'est impossible
Je continu de souffrir
Les larmes coulent sur mes joues
La douleur me suit...

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Trying to forget, Lying to forget

Lies that lie
Eyes that cry
Try and try to understand
That maybe skies were ment to fall on me
Just like people who will never be free
Living lies
Talking sides
Daily dimmer minds and duller times
Maybe life is just a fight to survive
Only dreams can make me feel more alive
I need to rest but not alone
I need help but no one's there to reach
I'm reaching out again
Pleading, begging for relief
No words for what is wrong with me
Self hatered is all I see
Living in a confusing daze
Wishing it's all a phase
One escape, one way out
The more it hurts, the less I shout
Afraid to live
So take the pills
Deep within a void it fills
Just one more day
Scared to death...

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I'm my own worst enemy...

Lost in my mind
Trapped in my web of unanswered questions
No escape from hurtful thoughts
Flooding in my head
I try to stop them
But it only encourages them
Pouring into my mind
I close my eyes
Cover my ears
But still
There's no escape
They follow me constantly
Around in my head
Running, I try and hide
But I'm breathless
Still they keep coming
Tearing me apart
One by one
Painful memories rip my heart
That's sore
Bleeding and battered
Can't take much more
The only way out of this tangled maze
Is quite simle
I don't like quitters but...

Time has come to be erased

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Questions I can't answer, feelings I can't stop

I'm falling apart
My life
I can't put together
The scars are forever
And the cuts are deeper
Why am I doing this ?
I'm lost inside
The maze of my mind
I may never be found
Help me
The darkness is overtaking
I'm suffocating
I'm falling apart
The pieces of my life
No longer fit
There's no hope...

Broken dreams
Shattered heart
Lost all reason
And fell apart
Find the strenght
Search for the truth
Innocence has gone
Blackened heart
Ever so close
To ending the pain
Isn't it ironic
How we always play this game ?
A faded smile...

Can I survive a little longer ? I don't know...

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