Sorrow...I blame you !

The whole problem is that I care.
I wish I didn't but I can't.
You're a part of my life, and I'm a part of yours.
I'm hurting because I care, it's so easy but so complicated.
I miss you so much, but if you were here, just in front of me, I wouldn't know what to say.
You're a stanger.
I just want to be in your arms, just once !
Why can't I have a father, a family, just like everyone around me ?
I need you, but you're not here.
Like always.
One day, maybe, I'll forgive you for what you've done to me. But what I'm sure of, is that I'll never forget.
I don't trust you anymore.
I don't trust myself anymore.
And that's all because of you.
All these years... all these lies...
I was so young, too young to understand, to react, but now I've had enough.
I just can't hide my scars anymore.
The scars YOU have made!
I'm just done... tired of fighting against a ghost : you.
My sorrow... just too much.
Maybe I deserve it.
Maybe it's my fate.
Who knows ?
I don't...

Orchidée noire