Frozen inside

I feel this pain deep down inside,
Yet, lately it's been so easy to hide.
Taken so long to finally feel,
All these things that I know are real.
A chilling thought that they may come stumbling out,
Seems so easy to forget since I've tried so hard not to remember.
And it's hard, I want to let it out.
The only truth on the outside,
are the tears I seldom ely set free.
The inside, I've kept shielded,
it's but a memory, a dream.
The numbness has taken over,
Enveloped in the eery cold.
As my eyes shut each night,
I don't even think.
Wish I could heal all these invisible wounds,
but they are only scars.
Just bloody scars

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